The crowd grows and intensely screams on the top of their voices. The fog descends from both sides of the stage, while everyone is expecting for them to appear when all the fog goes away. I look around and all I think about is there’s million of souls and minds replaying the lyrics of the songs on their heads. They are all thinking about the band, the songs and fun, while I am thinking of something else.
I felt that spiritually I was somewhere else, another universe. While everyone was jumping and dancing to the astounding and mind-blowing opening band, I observed. I observed, beheld, examined and analyzed him carefully. Even after the opening band stopped playing and everyone was chatting, I still was thinking on the beyond. The band started playing, I jumped a bit, but I stopped to witness the beauty of the flickering lights on his skin.
But I realized it was too painful to watch him, if he is so outside my limits. So I slowly got bit far from him. I sang, had fun, jumped around but I still was thinking about him. I had to focus and let him go, so I left to the unknown. I walked through millions of organisms and they were all having a blast. I returned back to my original location, and I observed and analyzed a bit more, and it made me crave for more. I returned back because I am a lifeless, masochistic, and hopeless girl and I am confusedly and irrationally in love with him.
-MOSTARD ASHIO
